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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 02:52

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My boyfriend always verbally abuse me and makes me cry. If I try to tell him how hurt I was, he says to me he loves me and can't hurt me but always abuse me. Why?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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I will be 64.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

What is the nastiest thing you had your wife do and she loved it?

Was to survive, this bastard.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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I was seconnd youngest,

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im still living with it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

(And it was in our own minds.)

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She was in good health!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She married twice! .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One cannot live in the past .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And i lived it daily.

Ive learnt so much.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But, we were locked up after school.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

This is soul school!.

Would this be the day?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My life is so biszare .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But it wasn’t much.

She found it foreign!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

When she asked me how she looked .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He knew the spot.

So, i spoilt her more .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

It was going to be , some day.

I was 9 years of age.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She loved him until the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Put me off passion for life!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I waited trembling.

What did i know ?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was scared of men, in general

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Comes on , in middle age.

I said to her

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He resisted the act ,that day.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why did i forgive my father ?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Who then, do I blame.?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

All the time i was locked up.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But ive been too sick for many years..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We all went to grammer schools

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I have no regrets .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We were not on the streets..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I don,t even have a pension.

So whats the point in blame.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I couldn’t, believe it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I write beautiful poetry .

I was very sick at this time too.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She wouldn,t have been !

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My family never makes their pension either.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !